My ears are hot.
And I've been getting nosebleeds again.
It's largely stress-related.
I'm much happier at the new job than I have been at any of my past ones
(save perhaps my first-ever job here at Pitt, which alas paid shit), but
unfortunately there's a ton of constant stress here, which gives me
headaches, nosebleeds, makes my ears hot from the pressure, and
sometimes interferes with sleep.
This is the type of job that
even when you take vacation time you need to check e-mail to make sure
there's no major explosions that need to be dealt with immediately.
least the money is better, which will allow me--if I can get
disciplined--to get my practical shit in order--pay off some debts, get
my monthly bills in order--which in a perfect world would then result in
me being able to take a less-stressful, lower-paying job in the future.
I need to lose weight. Really badly, I need to lose weight.
I've been starting to feel unhealthy again lately. I need to cut out the
sugar in my diet--I've been splurging and indulging FAR too often
lately. I need to get back on a hardcore low carb regimen. The trick is
actually taking care of lunch at home. When I get up in the mornings I
am worse than an angry zombie. I can't even THINK about preparing food
to take to work with me. And usually I fall asleep on the couch in the
evenings, then wake up to stagger up to bed, so doing it before bed
isn't a realistic goal either--at least not until I manage to
successfully change my habits, which really needs to happen.
I should start getting it together first thing when I get home from
work every day. That could work. Come home, make and bag tomorrow's
lunch so I can just grab and go when I get ready for work tomorrow.
And I need to kick up my exercise.
was lifting weights with a friend, but I really just didn't feel like I
was getting out of it what I need. It's not the type of exercise I
want. I understand the whole concept of building lean muscle mass and
whatnot, but really, if you're not feeling better after exercising, it's
pointless. The only way a person is going to keep up with an exercise routine is if they can find a form of exercise they enjoy and/or that makes them feel better after, and lifting does neither for me.
I need to start going to a gym with a good variety
of cardio equipment and start an actual exercise routine. One that gets
my heart rate up and lets me work up a sweat instead of one that just
makes my arms, back, legs and shoulders ache for days. When I do
cardio--jogging, walking, whatever--I feel better afterward. I feel
healthier, and better about myself. For some reason when I lift weights I
feel worse about myself after I'm done, and I don't mean just
physically beat up (though that happens, too); I mean my self esteem
takes a dive for some reason. During the work out I count the exercises,
thinking, "how many more left to go?" whereas when I do cardio-related
workouts I often find myself thinking, "Oh, that went fast," at the end
Anyway, yeah...it's time to make a plan and follow
through. I've been too haphazard for too long, and it needs to stop if
I'm going to get healthy again, especially if I'm going to be working a
higher stress job.